| I've gone back and forth with my emotions on this |
[Apr. 25th, 2009|10:22 pm] |
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Lately, an overwhelming sense of powerlessness has come over me. I know the roots. I just don't feel like explaining them. There's nothing I can do about it anyway. The reason? It's a problem that doesn't really involve me, though I wish there was something I could do to help.
Besides what is the point of wanting to help, being WILLING to if they'll just hate you anyway?
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Now - this is something I have been building up with saying for several years now. Because I try to remain sensitive to all races and cultures that may come across my journal or who by chance are actually on my friends list. I am going to start it out with a simple statement.
I am white.
However, the war(s) is over. It was over LONG before I was even BORN. Get. Over. It. I was lucky enough to grow up in a very unprejudiced household. As in to the extent that I don't really see a person's "color". I recognize differences in beliefs and cultures, I recognize personalities - but that doesn't mean that because someone is different than me that I hate them. Yeah, I'm white. Yeah, I'm descended from the race that has apparently been responsible for oppressing every other race ever created - not to mention white people have *shock* oppressed other white, but that doesn't mean I have personally done it. So, while I am sorry for what has happened to other people's ancestors, and what may still be happening to them from white person to ____ race now, I do not feel I should have to apologize for being white. I am not asking ___ race to apologize for being that race, am I? Why? I didn't do anything to you. If I had/have done something to you, trust me, it was not because you were racially, culturally, or just plain different from me. In fact, it was probably unintentionally done.
I don't get it. I don't get the whole racial pride thing. I don't get the whole well black is black and should stay with black and white is white and should stay with white, or Asian is Asian, or American Indian is American Indian, etc... NO. I can NOT comprehend it. It was just something I was not taught to do, feel or think. I see it. I have experienced it. Yes, for your information, white people receive a great deal of prejudice (justifiably I suppose) too. Also, a person shouldn't have to "prove" their unprejudiced stance by becoming romantically involved with someone of another race, which seems to be what people are doing. Yet at the same time if two people who ARE genuinely attracted to one another and of different races - that should NOT be an issue. But it should not be the reason you date someone, and it should not be the reason you DO NOT date someone. So, here is my problem: I am tired of it. I am tired of separatist attitudes. I am tired of people drawing boundary lines over either relationships (friendship or romantic alike) or business practices, or even - "this is for this type of people" thing. OK, my forefathers screwed up. But that was centuries ago. IT IS OVER. If my hickville family up in the mountains can get over it, then why can't the rest of you? Don't people get tired of the "victims" act? Until THAT mentality is covered, no one can progress forward. Explore your roots, seek your family tree. But just remember - that IS the past. While you have to know your past to be able to see a future - you can't see what lies ahead if you're still looking behind you.
White people do not have any more money than other cultures do. OK? Guess what? Little white girl isn't rich either. Little white girl lives from pay check to pay check and worries how she is going to pay for gas in her car and food to eat at work. Yeah, what I am ranting about here will take an entire change in the world's attitude, and while I know it will happen eventually, I just couldn't bottle this up anymore.
I AM TIRED OF IT. So - here it is. If you are going to come here with some attitude of superiority to another race - racial pride or whatever. Be proud of who YOU are, even what you are. But do not base it on a culture, race, or whatever. They shape you to an extent - but those things are only a part of YOU. But remember, somewhere along the line, maybe even centuries and centuries eons in the making I am related to you. You hate ME, then you may as well hate yourself. That is why when people ask if I hate so and so, I say no. Because I tried to teach myself to hate what people do, not the person themselves. I respect you and your cultures and beliefs - don't even bother reading or looking any further here if you refuse to return it. Yes, as a white person I experience prejudice behavior on almost a daily basis. It makes no sense to me, and I try not to take it personally, but honestly, is it really - necessary? We're not born hating people of a different color, race, or background. We learn it as children. I understand talking about your culture and beliefs, but don't do it as a way to insinuate or be hurtful. Be informative if you do. So, if you are of this type I have been ranting about for about an hour now - don't bring it to my communities, my household, or my journal.
There are two wolves inside of us... each is fighting to gain control. One is full of fury, hate, greed and evil. The other is full of kindness, compassion, mercy, love, generosity and goodness. Which one will win? Which one will you feed?
Ok, I'm done. |
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